I was a medical researcher,
who gave my life for a search into the origin of our suffering.
Fear and hope triggered this search.
This is nothing new, because all our searching into the labyrinth of our being do find its cradle in fear and
hope.
It was my feeling of learning medical tricks only to counteract death without knowing the real origin of our suffering.
It also was my empiric experience that my father - also a doctor- always lived at the
edge of being overworked, however his hospital was populated with more and more doctors to fulfill the growing need for medical help.
Isn't that a contradiction?
For me it looked like carrying water to the sea?
Owing to my growing interest in biology, anthropology or the appearance and disappearance of cultures, the process of evolution as well as the wisdom behind the acupuncture, I finally became able to answer my own
question.
Owing to all these studies I was able to resolve my own fear for taking responsibility for others without knowing the fundamental causes of our progressive suffering.
Unfortunately this was also the end
of my doctors-coat, because I saw that it was really carrying water to the sea .
Finally I came to the conclusion that suffering illnesses and wars are self-created enemies and/or the negative part of our unique
quality, named "thinking".
It is the negative part of the medal, which we never explored.
This implies that the more we think and resolve by our creative mind, even more self-created enemies surround our
life.
As thinking is our unique survival force that only is activated by problems, this process isn't a linear process.
It speeds itself up during time in a logarithmic way.
Secondly it was found that this
fundamental search wasn't so fundamentally as I thought, because it was found to be searched already thousands and thousands of years ago.
Then I understood also why we speak about research instead of search.
Our
suffering is a process, which presents itself in cycle-waves of 'low tide and high tide' of electromagnetic energy, which colours our Universe.
It are increasing waves, which are narrowly related to cultures, which
appear and disappear every Zodiac and follow a completely predictable way.
This was also the reason that the oriental philosopher Bhagwan could predict AIDS before this illness was reality.
This implies also
that our suffering is first of all a mental disease and characterized by a change of ethical norms in cultures.
The cycle-wave of suffering can be described as a logarithmic cumulating of epidemics during
every culture.
The first epidemic is a bacterial epidemic and in our culture known as the flu.
Multiple organ diseases characterize the second "epidemic".
Then the process of suffering
is coming in a logarithmic speed and is followed by respectively arteriosclerosis, cancer, AIDS [viral infections] and finally a self-destructive war.
Strange enough nobody seemed to interested in these discoveries.
Publishing or even discussing this subject is "unethical".
Does it look like a mental seclusion or "mental arteriosclerosis"
for this fearing discovery?
All together it was a search and/or a research of about 30 years of my life.
I gave 30 years of my life to find the cradle of our suffering with as a result a total denial of these
discoveries?
Of course this was frustrating.
Why nobody wanted to see reality?
Was it reality or was it a wishful thinking of myself and/or my illusion?
Fortunately there happened such strange situations
that I had only one conclusion.
The fundamental reason of this general negation is pride or honour!
Let me give you two examples.
Owing to my fundamental research of cells and its energy-regulation as well as
the energy-regulation in pregnancy it became clear for me that only one "nutriental enzyme"- named hyaluronidase - was responsible for our vitality or "energetic being".
The increased vitality
during pregnancy [about 10 %] was found to be caused by the high amounts of this enzyme in the placenta.
This leaded to the conclusion, that in time of delivery an acute fall down of energy could be the result of
postnatal depression.
Was that the reason that all mammals eat the placenta?
Without going in detail about the fundamental cause of foreign body reactions, I was able to treat this postnatal depression with
injections of embryonic cells of mammals.
I could understand the groundless fear of my colleagues concerning anaphylactic shock by injecting these foreign bodies, but that a journalist wrote about this discovery
"This doctor will go back to the pre-history" really was killing me softly.
The second example is even clearer.
This "native enzyme" for all mammals was found to be also the cradle of creating
vascular vessels.
Owing to this discovery I had a simple solution for our huge problem of arteriosclerosis in our legs that in many cases ends with amputation.
What could I do more than experiment it on such patients?
After a couple of successful treatments, I decided to invite a world-famous specialist on oxygenation of cells to prove it with sophisticated measurements.
His decision to come was grounded on the idea that it was absolutely impossible to create a completely new vessel-system in 12 minutes of time.
After a successful treatment his only comments were " You
seriously harm the honour of our profession and I never will see you again".
I don't tell this story in the vain idea to find confession.
I passed this point already longtime ago.
I tell it here because of two different reasons.
I tell it here to inform you how honour, pride and status also have its very negative side and mentioned in the Bible as 'Pride before the fall'.
It is like the aphorism "Honour is as dangerous as a rifle or a gun".
I tell it also, because this general denial of my medical colleagues created a new problem in my mind.
This problem was much more complex than all preceding ones.
This problem was also induced by my interest in evolution itself.
This problem was named "Why evolution ends with a creature that have to suffer
because of his unique quality of thinking".
After finding the cradle of our suffering, I stopped my profession of "carrying water to the sea" and dedicated myself to this new problem.
One thing was very clear.
The doctor's symbol - the staff of domination and the rising snake- was the dominating staff of thinking with the poisonous snake of doing without knowing!
Now I can say also that our
nowadays logarithmic multiplication of discoveries are primary based of our logarithmic suffering and nothing more.
In other words: Suffering and our creativity are narrowly related.
The one is not possible without the other.
It is like the symbol of yin and yang, which was let us by Buddha.
In previous articles I mentioned already that all cycles in the Universe were said to be equal ones.
Now I can state that only by re-finding one cycle-wave of the cosmic watch of eternity, I was able to see much more equal cycles.
Now I can guarantee that all cycle-waves in the Universe are equal ones and that our
planet Earth is -speaking in comparison- nothing more than one of the electrons that turn around its nucleus.
Now I can guarantee that there is no difference between our process of evolution of specimen with a
heartbeat or the beats that recently were found in an electron at the end of its cyclic way around its neutron itself.
It is all the same, however…
The ancient oriental wisdom let us also that all these cycle-waves
in our Universe are equal ones, but that only the smallest and the biggest cycle had found eternal life and all cycles in between are cursed with temporality.
Owing to all these re-discoveries I found acceptance and
acquiescence that -like an electron ends with an energetic explosion before his new turn-around- we also will burn in Uranus as well.
But still there was one question left.
What is the cosmic reason or the sense of life on our planet?
Isn't that the question, which took us in the spell already thousands of years?
Somewhere the answer had to be hidden; an answer that I couldn't see.
Again and again I laid down the puzzle with all their cycles.
After 12 years of searching, I finally re-found the answer.
And like I was able to read the hereditive story of the origin of cancer properly after
finding the origin of this disease, I was amazed that even this story was precisely described long longtime ago.
It was hidden in the ancient saying that women [yin] represented the perfection as men [yang] were
said to be the imperfection. It was the small difference of general lifetime between both partners, which finally gave me the answer.
Finally I re-found the third part of the medal.
It is side of the medal, which connect the upper part with the down part.
Finally I re-found the middle between the good and the bad of our thinking and doing without knowing.
Finally I re-found the cosmic sense of life on planets.
Do I need to speak about this subject extensively?
I don't think so and only can mention it!
In my humble opinion it is as pointless as my whole search
into the labyrinth of our being.
It is again the general pride of our discoveries, which cut off every discussion.
One only shall accept and/or change minds when the calf is drawn.
One only shall accept it at
the moment that scientists have admitted that they lost the fight against our self-created enemies completely.
One only shall accept it when they admit that all our discoveries to find eternal life for us is a mental
error and/or an illusion.
Then we also are able to see that our self-created God or Allah was an illusion as well.
But this will be at the bitter end of our existence or just before the calf is drawn.
At that ultimate moment we had fulfilled our cosmic task completely.
Than the problem of matter in our part of the Universe is solved and a new cycle of billions of years begins again in the other part of the cosmos.
May I ask you?
Isn't it too unbelievable for words?
I was able to walk the cycle back with the help of all nowadays discoveries.
There is really nothing new under the sun!
It looks so a simple doctrine.
May I introduce one of them and ask you again : "Is it really as simple as it looks like?"
During time I found hundreds of such equal cycles, after which I concluded that it is "Truth and
nothing else than truth".
It is "nil nisi veritas" and using this modell I was able to receive more insights in the Universe as well.
